The Moment I Knew is the story about a girl named Suezena who fell in love with 3 boys in a year but two of them just used her and the real one showed his love from the very first sight. they both fell in love but somehow God did not agree with their... The Moment I Knew is the story about a girl named Suezena who fell in love with 3 boys in a year but two of them just used her and the real one showed his love from the very first sight. they both fell in love but somehow God did not agree with their love and Suezena's happiness died when he lost Lorve in just one month forever from this world, she has to overcome many situations after that in the next party of the novel, Suezena will get in a college and start a new life again see ya!
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[Suezena]
So hello everyone, i am Suezena from a very crowded city in California, so yes you got it, it's san diego, umm currently I'm gonna be 18 but this 18 will become my last year in this school because I will be in final grade of school so yeah, it's kinda emotional but my future will start after this and i should have to make my future bright and got a new chance to create a unforgettable chapter of my life i just don't want my life like a year ago with someone and recently with the second one, I just got a first and a last chance to create myself phenomenal despite being cheated by three people my love for two dies but for one it will never die, people say love never dies but for me it died when I was being used as a last option in my love list, damn being loved by guys is something no one will experience from anybody but here's the story how I was being controlled, manipulated and loved by the three major guys in my life, here we go!!!!
It was the summer time of last August when my family decided to throw my 17th birthday party, which was the worst birthday ever in my whole life. But I didn't know that someone would appear at that party. Let's rewind everything possible!
I met Joe for the very first time in my school "like two years ago" when I was in 10th grade and he was in 9th grade. People mostly say first high school love is the first ever feeling you got for someone else and first love never dies even if the garden full of roses and lilies die in the drought, same happened with me.
I thought Joe was the love of my life but it was just a thought because he never liked me back but also it was also a thought, his friends started to love me especially his best friend Lorve.
I had heard many white rumours about Lorve that he had a huge crush on me and I liked him too because he was so cute but I didn't like him as much as Joe so he was just silent because of his best friend Joe who was my crush.
Oh God! I'm so tired of this life. Why am I always suffering from everyone's problem? Am I a problem in everyone's life? Why don't you take me away with you? I'm so fuckkkkiiiiinggg tired of this damnnnn life!
I guess we have skipped the main point which was about my birthday, haha, i'm so excited for my birthday this year because I have a special feeling this birthday, I will be finally 18, will get my driver license, the special thing is that I will go for college but this was the last year with my best friends, I'm really excited for the new things are gonna happen in my life but i still haven't moved on from the 3 major boys in my life, Jonas Michel, Joe grasper, Lorve Spencer. I'm really missing them but what will I do I can't even get them back because God has created other ways and plans to enjoy each and every moment in our life but for me these things didn't even matter I was just lost in one sided love with Joe and about Lorve his best friend, he loved me but I didn't because I was his best friend's one sided love why should I love, i had loved Joe, things started to fall apart from the very beginning, Oh God I'm crying!!!
Last February, my father had a heart attack a day before my boards exams but thank God nothing happened to him! But a person named Jonas had a huge breakup with me because I one sidedly liked him so bad and it also broke my heart, Jonas was the first crush of my life and he really spent a lot of time with me but I didn't even know what time could bring us to, he choked me and left my hand for the very first time in the area full of crowd where all my friends were insulting me and i was completely felt alone i begged in front of him, saying,"please Jonas don't leave me i know you are upset with me but I don't know the reason." My body was shivering, my hands were trembling and my whole body and soul became naive and i started to harm myself till today because I chose him, considered him the love of my life but he didn't even choose me because he became so mean with all of his best friends who always thought bad about us. I was really attached to Jonas, he brought me glass pen that was so expensive and gifted me on my 16th birthday and Even gave me party surprise where all our friends came to celebrate it but those days were short and the dark nights were long, in those long nights i was all alone, got my both kidneys shrunk in the summers because I was diagnosed with lupus, had panic attacks, i told him everything about these issues but he acted like he didn't even care for me, he always come back when he's in need and i never refused him to help because that's not my character, if any stranger would've asked me for help, i would surely gonna help them, That's me! After that me and Jonas, we both daily fought on silly things, topics and all! Which started to bring cracks nearer to our relationship, when he left my hand in front of the crowd, where i was being insulted was the breaking point, i texted him again after this and asked,"Jonas please tell me what was the reason why you left me, I was tryna myself to ask you out that I love you and i just wanna me and you, I chose us, i swear if I made a mistake tell me which one is that, where i was wrong or somebody manipulated you about me, please text me back, i just need you so bad." With my shaking hands i texted him that message but for some days he didn't reply me back but he saw my message and started to ignore, again i texted him while I was crying so harsh in the bathroom and said," please Jonas reply to me i need you soooo bad please understand, I want us!." And he replied me back and said," why didn't you tell me earlier about that, i would have chosen you not Betty, you would've been my side, not betty, i had a very long crush on you since the day we met and remember when since the 5th grade, i thought we can ask each other out but not, you just need someone who just need attention every time, leave me and Betty alone we both are happy with each other, and don't ever text me back, understood!" With this Jonas left me in the bluest days in my life, never have i ever being cheated like that, my heart just shattered into tiny pieces, my hope was left bereft, why my world became empty when I had lost just one person, I could never be like me ever in my life, i became totally invisible till my class 10th final exams maybe my heart needed someone who could replant all my lilies and roses that was deforested by Jonas, maybe my lungs needed new air to breathe in, maybe my stomach needed new butterflies and that was so random but few months, later someone, i didn't even know who he or she was I didn't even know his or her identity because that account had privacy with no profile picture but wait someone from my mutuals had followed him and you know who it was Lorve my crush's best friend, i randomly asked Lorve who he/she was..... But luck wasn't on my side because my phone broke down after I texted him and I really felt bad about that because I was on edge to know that person who had been stalking me on instagram for many days....
Our juniors were on the way to give us a last goodbye which was our farewell. And my phone got broken, see this is how unlucky i am, crying!
But wait something magical thing was about to happen in few days which was that Lorve and i studied in the same tuition where he told me that he was Joe who had been stalking me and my ears couldn't believe the words he said, I had butterflies in my stomach because I couldn't even imagine that my crush had been stalking me on instagram
Damn that's so romantic, my eyes started to see the world we would build together awww "thanks Lorve for telling me" but I couldn't say this to him instead I said " oh thats Joe, I see." What nonsense I was talking about. When you got to know that your crush had been stalking you every single second,every hour, especially from his best friend, that's the biggest dream i had dreamt of but God had other plans too, you know the phrase there is nothing which doesn't have cons and pros and that's exactly what happened to me later.......
My class 10th final exams began and I had read nothing, period!!!! Girl!!! I'm so tense. I didn't know what I could do, what I would write in my exams but that was the lie, because that is the trademark of a topper who always pretends like they have read nothing and that's me also, period girl!!!
But now I'm telling you everything if I do right now then what's the point of writing a story of my life
